After the Cutting....

When I first woke up from the surgery all I can remember saying is "IT FUCKING HURTS" I was in that after surgery stooper between waking up and being out of it and all I could feel the nurse do was tell me that she was hooking me up and that I felt like my guts had been filled full of buckshot. Man ow man that memory is the only thing that has ever really bothered me about the surgery but would I do it all again.....your dam right I would. So the nurse hooks me up to the morphine drip AHHHHHH and things slowly got better. In recovery I could tell that something had changed inside of me. You see this surgery is like having your plumbing in your  house This picture to the left depicts approxomatly what happens to  your insides, your stomach is literally disconnected from the digestion of food, thus it goes straight down into the loswer intestines and raises hell with your body chemestry and can make you feel very very strange because your body is dealing with a much raw-er from of bio mass and it does not know (chemicially) how to deal with it so it just throws every thing it has at it and this feeling is what the medicial profession calls "dumping"  and for the next 20 mins you just lay your head down on a pillow and let it go the way it will go and drink some water.

So as the days go by I feel better by about 2 times better every day that goes by so the pain is going away fast, I'm adjusting to eating in 3 min. instead of 30 mins so I have much more time to spend doing the better things in life. I was losing weight at about the rate of about 1.5 - 2.0 lbs. per day so I went from around 740 (officially weigh in at surgery time) to almost 700 by the time I got back to San Diego. And as the days went on I got smaller and smaller much to my surprise and faster then I had ever thought possible. The dream was coming true. First less then 675, the 650, then 600, the 550, 500, 400, 450, 425, gone, gone, gone was the weight that had corralled my body for 20 years and had made me the prisoner I was to a bed and a chair with no arms. There I was staring in a mirror 1 day and I just broke out in sheer unadulterated tears of happiness. My life was and is changing right before my eyes and there was nothing anyone could do to stop it.

Ladies and gentelmen I had arrived, I was sub 350 lbs and man the world was my oyster but that is today let me digress a bit and tell you some of the bumps I went over to get here after the surgery. Many of you have sent email asking me "why I did the surgery..?" Well besides the obvious answer of I just wanted to live, I really wanted to see what life was all about since my 20's had been stolen from me I had no sense of what it was like to live a happy adult life of having a job, a wife/girlfriend with a healthy relationship. That had all been taken from me and I had to catch up and see what I could do about that.

Many more pictures and audio interviews comming up ladies and gents next week. I have several radio show interviews I did prior to surgery and it may just give you a little insite as to what I was going through and where I had been...

I love you guys.....


The Cabbie